Every color turns into no color at all...

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 21:37:17 GMT

17:32

Happy Independance Day!

I'm not going to the cookout after all. It appears I'm heading towards another tooth abcess, so yeah. I'm not sure if I'm going to fireworks yet or not.

Our ice cream machine's engine exploded again too, so Mom and Dad went to Marsh to get ice cream to go with the Strawberry pie I made.

Anyway, they're back so see y'all!

Have a great free day, US of America!

~ Uozumi

17:36

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 05:49:12 GMT

01:38

I present to you, my terrible horrible no good very bad day. I don't normally parade about every single little woe that happens, but fucking hell yesterday and into today is shaping up to be one little thing after another. I just need to get this all out or I'm going to probably do something that we'll all come to regret IRL or online or maybe both.

First, I woke up later than usual, which mean my IV was going to be later than normal. I was feeling irritated but I thought it was the tape holding my IV down because the tape had irritated me on day one when it was taping down the extra cord.

So I get downstairs and there's something tan grossero for lunch. I end up making waffles for lunch and they're soggey and not cooked allt he way through somehow after being half burnt comming out of the fucking packaging D:

After this, I find out that my IV needle is no longer in my vein, so Mom has to call up Nurse J and she has to come and put a new needle into my arm. This moves the needle DOWN my arm which means that bending my arm is near impossible without much more pain than the needle already cause which feels like a constant beesting all hours of the day >_>

Then, after that lovely forray, I get into the major cramps and major cranks and to this hour I still have no reason for either, and that's kinda pissing me off. I want a reason for both plzkthnx body.

Then, I think I'll get on my computer and do stuff, and it's all "Critical update, Vistal Service Pack 1" and I think "Okay, that sounds critcial" and that's when it just kind of crashes and burns badly. Now, I know that Service Pack 1 has been out since March. Hell, I've had a pirated Service Pack 1 since about August on my computer pretty much to bring Vista under control, which wasn't really a pirate but a torrent of allt he Microsoft fixes, but anyway, I thought that they finally were forcing me into the service pack. It took me into a loop where it would hash code me at the restart of the update. I had to run installer disc eventually and just end up with no more nothing on my computer.

So here I am redownloading my music. I have no openCanvas, no Photoshop, no games, no nothing D: and AND....AND IT GETS WORSE!

MSN MESSENGER WON'T MOTHER FUCKING DOWNLOAD!

What fresh shit is this?!

I mean like it downloads and stuff, but it won't like complete the download with the latest version. I tried earlier versions but they won't work. I HAVE to have the LATEST version, even with the spiffy PLUS add on, and just...no MSN for me apparently :|

I think I'm about ready to cry.

Also, with this IV placed where it is, this means sleeping on my back, which means I won't be sleeping at all because I don't sleep on my back. I wake up whenever I roll onto it actually >____>

Can I just get a do over?

I want to watch Greta. Is she rerunning now? Ugh...I think her rerun is almost over. Oh well.

I'll just go back to recovering my lost glory.

If you need me I'll be Tamaki sobbing in my corner. If only Macs didn't chew up my brain and spit it out and then jump on it and rip it to shreads, my life could be so much easier @_@

~ Uozumi

01:47

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 03:47:40 GMT

23:45

Bear with me. My computer was forced into Vista Service Pack 1 by Windows Update. This lead to a complete system Groundhog Day loop which meant using the recovery disk.

Now I must reinstall everything and redownload all my music and everything and just....grrrrrrrr......

So yeah, that's where I am if I'm not around, and that's why I'm extra stressed if I bite you.

Did not help that I had to have my IV replaced in my arm today either.

~ Uozumi

23:46

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 06:17:31 GMT

02:10

Still on my sorta kinda hiatus thingymajigger.

The IV thing is going much better than I anticipated, but I think that I won't be at full falculties until it's over with and the IV plug is out of my left arm. I'm not always hooked up to a bag, but the IV hookup is always in my vein.

I need to stop worrying that some things from freshman year of college will repeat themselves but those were some unsavory experiences. I need to get on Facebook and see if my question was answered. Though if I feel as exhausted as I have these past couple days I might not go to Ed's cookout even though my IV will be over with. I think if I knew everyone who will be there, I wouldn't care, but since I won't, I just feel apprehensive. But in the same breath, there might be TMI and if there is TMI, I won't be in any state to do that anyay because I'll be TMIing and just that's too TMI to function anyway.

So far my headache hasn't broken, but this is only day two. Dr. Z said that normally people don't see a break in pain until day three, so maybe tomorrow I'll taste freedom *_*

Anyway, apparently my computer wants to install something called Vista Service Park 1 >______________________> ABOUT DAMN TIME, HUH?!

Well, anyway, let's see if it can go better than last night where something weird happened and Tosh-tan about went down the crapper in a ball of flame.

Wish me luck!

*slinks back off into hiatusland*

~ Uozumi

02:16

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 06:26:12 GMT

02:17

Where am I?

If I'm not online, I'm probably on hiatus.

Why? Because of the IV pain drip.

If I am online and acting very off, please understand that it's probably the IV talking and not me. If I do something unforgivable, uh...forgive me? :D

The world should be back to normal by Saturday.

For now, the fears meme.

[] the dark
[] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[] giving birth
[] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[x] heights
[] dogs
[] birds
[] fish
[x] spiders
[] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 2

[] being touched
[x] fire
[] deep water
[] snakes
[] silk
[] the ocean
[] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boyfriend's/girlfriend's dad
[] boyfriend's/girlfriend's mom
[x] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[] snow

Total so far: 4

[] rain
[] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[] death
[] heaven
[x] being robbed
[x] falling
[x] clowns
[x] dolls
[] large crowds of people
[] men
[] women
[] having great responsibilities
[] doctors, including dentists
[] tornadoes

Total so far: 9

[] hurricanes
[] incurable diseases
[] sharks
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
[] poverty
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[] being alone
[] becoming blind
[] becoming deaf
[] growing up

Total so far: 9

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[] dinosaurs
[] the welcome mat
[] high speed
[] throwing up
[] falling in love
[] super secrets

I got 11. Admittedly there are some on here I'm not fond of, but I would consider them fears. Also, I'd say the tornado thing is more of a white furry animal reflex than an actual fear, so it doesn't actually count.

I was surprised though that drowning wasn't on there. And I had to snicker at incurable diseases because I dunno, I'm well beyond that now. I've accepted whatever the fuck this is, it's not going to go away, but if I can figure out what it is, maybe I can make it bearable, ne?

Anyway, that's the point of the IVs! So, hopefully I will be able to go about my normal activities while medicated, but I'm not sure and I won't know until tomorrow.

So I'll either see you at our normally scheduled carnival ride with cotton candy or on Saturday since that's when Friday's IV will have probably worn off by.

See y'all when I sees ya!

~ Uozumi

02:26

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 05:30:22 GMT

01:23

Wide wide awake :D

I can't tell if I have a cold or not. I hope I don't.

I should turn on my light and just finish off my drawing now that I'm done with Toshi-chan's birthday gift. Please don't click if you are averse to Y!Gallery, slash, cross-dressing, aged character fanart, and sorta!kinda!dark!Wonderland.

Anyway, I might not be going to Ed's cookout on the Fourth, but I won't know until Friday. If I'm not going, I'll call Ed or just change my Facebook invite status or something. There will be clear indication as to if I should show up or not. I am HOPING to be there, but if push comes to shove, realisitcally, I might not be able to make it.

D: I smell weird. I bathed today too. Smell like soap not weird, body! At least it's not a dirty smell, just a weird smell. Or maybe I'm not smelling things right? I dunno.

I think I'm going to turn on my light again and just finish off my drawing.

Yes, that's what I'll do.

~ Uozumi

01:28

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 06:03:35 GMT

01:26

I'M WIDE AWAKE :D :D :D

So I gacked this from one of my surrogate big sis of the Interwebz.

The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicize those you intend to read.
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Strike out the books you have no intention of ever reading, or were forced to read at school and hated.
5) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them.

~~1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen~~
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
~~3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte~~
4 The Harry Potter Series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
~~7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte~~
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
~~10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens~~
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
~~41 Animal Farm - George Orwell~~
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
~~54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen~~
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
~~61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck~~
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
~~81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens~~
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
~~83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker~~
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
~~85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert~~
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
~~88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom~~
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

Well, that was an odd collection. Let's see how many bolds I got....*opens up preview window*

Twenty-eight books. Not bad, eh?

I have more strikes though I think XDDDDDDDDD

~ Uozumi

02:03

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 20:29:51 GMT

16:21

Mmmm...Psyren ♥♥♥♥

So I went to the Headache Center this morning. They asked me some questions and got a bead on things. So, this nurse is going to come to my house and I'm going to be on an IV for about 25 - 45 minutes once a day for five days with a high dose medication. The nurse will explain the details when she comes on the first day. The goal with it is to break the pain cycle and work towards normalcy.

I've been put on TopAMAX, which is a anti-seizure/headache medication. The doctor suggested I take it at night so I don't experience the brunt of side effects - which I still need to look up come to think of it - but we'll see. I'm going to take it tonight, but if it makes my insomnia worse like all other tranquilizers I've ever been on, I'll take my chances and take it during the day.

*stares at tv* Clothing optional pool?! D: Talk about a rude awakening looking out yoru apparment window. Although maybe it's not in line with a window, but still....just....D: naked people.

Now I've lost my train of thought.

Hopefully this will all be taken care of by school.

~ Uozumi

16:29

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 03:09:04 GMT

23:07

I am unamused. Apparently I'm the only person with this Yahoo as a virus thing D:

So I'm going to run my antivirus software and see if it isn't a worm that's making Yahoo appear as a worm.

Again, I can't get to my Yahoo on either IE or Firefox, so I'll only be able to reply to comments if I catch them by refreshing.

Sorry about te false alarm. Also, sorry about that news article, I didn't see a date on it, and parts of it were matching up to what my antivirus claims the virus/worm thing is.

~ Uozumi

23:08

23:50

I restarted, my anti-vrius updated itself, and now I can access Yahoo no problems D:

WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THAT EARLIER?!

~ Uozumi

23:50

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 01:00:10 GMT

20:57

ATTENTION!

Do NOT go to Yahoo not even to check your mail.

This will give you a virus/worm unless your anti-virus software is current and can catch the virus/worm.

Because of this, I won't be able to get to comments on LiveJournal until tis problem is solved.

Stay safe and pass the word on!

~ Uozumi

20:59

EDIT: Ignore the news article, I thought it was talking about what's currently happening everytime I've tried to access Yahoo for the past few hours. Basicaly, my antivirus keeps crying worm.

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 05:55:35 GMT

01:46

Psyren is kick ass. If you like(d) Yu*Yu*Hakusho, you'll probably like this series. I'm not sure exactly why, but YYH just keeps popping into my head even though they're two differnt plot types.

My fever is finally going down. I've had it since yesterday and finally I feel a bit more normal.

I tried to read Reborn again, but it just didn't pan out. I think I've come to discover that I probably pick up on vibrations of mangaka? Because really I can't say why else I still can't really get through it except it makes me feel queasy even though nothing queasy inducing is going on o_o I mean I stopped reading Claymore because I was queasy, but I was on chapter 80-something so wellinto the action and it was kinda gross and horrific, so queasy indeed XDDD So I must be picking up something about the mangaka then because I can't really place why Reborn makes me queasy.

And someone needs to put up chapters 45 and 46 of Sket Dance D: I wanna know what happens next! I need to color something from this manga someday too. For all the love I have for it, you'd think I'd have done a page or three by now.

I need to figure out when we're switching to the My system at Purdue. I need to make sure my classes stay intact. I am hoping the switch doesn't make them all disappear. I will be very angry if I have to hunt them down again or if I get shut out of any due to computer error D<

What am I planning to take? Well, I don't remember the course desinations, but the titles are:

The Second World War
Lincoln and the Civil War
The Great Dictators pre-193X (I don't remember the year >_>;;)
Film Pre-1918 (or something like that)

It should be an interesting semester.

Oh and if I don't reply to your comment, it probably accidentally got sent in my spam folder >_>;; I'm not sure why Yahoo is doing this D:

~ Uozumi

01:54

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 04:36:34 GMT

0:31

I swear to God, if the Headache Center doesn't believe me, I'll...I'll...

I'll do something we'll all come to regret.

Not kill myself, but just...you'd think that being the headache center, they'd not assume it's headaches, but might ask you if you're having a continous headache? I mean I know I have headaches over the white noise, but seriously....

At least I got their forms filled out.

Staying home alone was kind of a drag in some respects and not too bad in others. I watched a really interesting thing on THE WHO and Jack behaved for me unlike last time when he was le bratface.

And I definitly want to see this Mongol movie. It looks gorgeous and it's history, and Ghengis Khan so just...YES all 'round. I probably will have to rent it, but maybe I can ask the West Layfayette library to pick it up and rent it from them for free :D That library has a kick ass collection of foriegn film.

Tonight's a slow night. I think everyone's burnt out from finals on my f-list XD

I'll go find something to amuse myself with.

~ Uozumi

0:36

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 13:36:51 GMT

09:27

VH1 playing music videos. Who knew?

Ugh....high matinance rp, but still compound_rp is still fun even if they're hardasses at the same time. But it's fun and I like rping with Shelli, so I'll stick around, just more underground than above. I don't like drama. Also, I've been in more persnickity groups before XD

My fingers keep going completely numb. I thought I was done with this. It's weird to function when you can't quite feel what you're doing. I think that I just had way too much stress, so I'm hoping that Jump Start soothes me. So far, it's working wonders. It's a shame that VH1 and MTV don't play music videos all the time anymore.

I should make a list of the drawing ideas in my head, so I can remember them.

But I'll do that later. Now I'll just go back to outlining. I have 36 hours to amuse myself. I wonder if I'll sleep at all tonigt XD They really shouldn't have used scare tactics with things growing up. I'm always afraid the house will catch fire or I'll get robbed or someting D: I don't know why I don't fear such things at the dorm alone >_>;; I think it's associations.

I also need to remember to fill out the forms for the headache center. I don't have to have them done until Tuesday, but I should do it before Teusday morning or Monday night.

~ Uozumi

09:36

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 05:56:41 GMT

01:49

So tomorrow I get to be home alone for two days and one night. My brother and mom are going to IU for his freshman thingy and my dad has to go to Chicago for work overnight. I think I only really enjoy being "home alone" when it's at the dorm. I mean if I was in walking distance of entertainment, calm sidewalks, and cute of age boys, things wouldn't be so omg boring. Not that I leave the house as is, but there's just something about having personal interactions during te day in this particular house that I like. I'm really going to miss comming home regularly next year and the rest of my life.

It will be interesting to see if I can get Jack to go to bed on time or if we'll have a growl fest until almost 4am or not. I am not good with dogs on my ownsome. I mean I'm not afraid of them consciously anymore, but I think a tiny part of me still is afraid of dogs. My fear of dogs used to almost be as amazing as my fear of heights, but after a while I calmed down and then we got Jack and things really have been good since. This has confirmed though that I shouldn't really ever have a dog as an adult until I have a family where it can be a group effort. I admit I wouldn't mind having a dog again in my life, just not wen it's just me and it.

Apparently Pheonix overloaded and lost days of data D: This makes me a sad panada. I hope that the lost data won't affect things too much.

I should finish my drawing outline so I'll have something productive to do for the next fourty-eight or so hours.

~ Uozumi

01:56

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 05:37:52 GMT

01:28

So, I've been having mini seizures for a past few days. The thing is they're not normal ones, but what feels like seizures inside my body. Like certain hiccup spells or random come and go heartburn, and a few other oddities that is just weird. I'm really started to get tired of it. I mean I guess it's better than being flat down on the floor, but at the same time, it's really annoying.

I know they're seizres because they're accompanied with a feeling of no control, and I usually feel exhausted after they pass without doing much of anything to feel exhausted about. Hopefully it just means I am still working the novacaine out of my system, but I don't know. It should be gone by now since it's been a week since surgery.

This means though that sometime this summer I get to go to the bran' spankin' new headache center. I don't know waht they can do for me, but well they are the last resort. If they can't do it, and if they can't send me to anyone who can do it, I'll just have to resign myself to living with this thing for the rest of my life.

It should be fun though since they'll probably make me stop drinking caffine. I'm going to be up all night! \:D/ Oh well, it will be good for me to a degree.

Anything to get this over and done with. It's been one year, four months, and four days since this began and I would like to get off now. I've had my merry-go-round fun for the rest of my life thank you very much.

I mean my goal as it has been since last summer is to get rid of my headache so I can get a job because there's no way I can hold one down effectively like this at all.

Oh well, I'm going to go outline my new drawing.

~ Uozumi

01:37

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 06:02:32 GMT

01:50

I saw this and feel compelled to do it. From marmalade_girl

1)How old were you?
THEN: 13
NOW: 23

2) Where did you go to school?
THEN: Zionsville Middle School and Zionsville Upper Middle School. My seventh grade year (1998 - 1999) they changed the school set up and kicked the sixth graders out of our building. And, yes I was 13 going into 7th grade only because I started kindergarten when I was 6.
NOW: Purdue University - one more year to go! :D I hope.

3) Where did you work?
THEN: I babysat my little brother at home.
NOW: Nowhere so far, hopefully Purdue libraries come fall.

4) Where did you live?
THEN: In a house down the street from where I live now when I'm at home. We moved here when I was going into 8th grade.
NOW: I split my time between Purdue and Z-ville.

5) How was your hairstyle?
THEN: Super long without bangs
NOW: Short, shaggy, and bangs

6) Did you wear braces?
THEN: Uh...*thinks* Yes, I was on my last year of them.
NOW: No, but I have a flipper with two false teeth on it until I get my implants screwed in XD

7) Did you wear contacts?
THEN: Nope
NOW: Nope

8) Did you wear glasses?
THEN: I wore them for reading and sometimes for the classroom board.
NOW: I only wear them if I absolutely need them.

9) Who was your best friend?
THEN: Val.
NOW: I dunno. I don't think I have gradations of friends anymore, I just have friends.

10) Which of your pets was still alive?
THEN: Jack
NOW: Jack XD He's 11 this year! :D

11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
THEN: Aahahahahaha XDDDDDDDDD Excuse me, I'm going to go die laughing over in the corner of eternally single.
NOW: Again, no one, but at least no one calls me names to my face when I show the slight bit of interest? :D

12) Who was your celebrity crush?
THEN: Elijah Wood
NOW: Elijah Wood. Really, he's my only celeb crush and it's only because he played Huckleberry Finn and I saw the movie about the same time I had the hots for said character when reading the book back in second grade XD

13) Who was your regular-person crush?
THEN: Someone that if we mention now, I will get really angry really fast on the inside.
NOW: No one that I can think of. There's no real point to them.

14) How many piercings did you have?
THEN: None
NOW: None

15) How many tattoos did you have?
THEN: None
NOW: None

16) What was your favorite band/singer?
THEN: The Beatles
NOW: I have too many to list spanning more than one country

17) Had you smoked cigarettes?
THEN: Nope
NOW: Nope

18) Had you got drunk?
THEN: *stares* most definitly not!
NOW: Not at all, but you know being someone who could die with just a tiny bit of alcohol in their system is a great deterent to ever EVER drinking anything alcoholic

19) Had you Driven?
THEN: Nope
NOW: Yeah, I've driven, but it was only for the summer when I was sixteen. Havent' touched a car's driving seat since.

20) If so which car?
THEN: None
NOW: It was what is now my brother's Honda Civic

21) Looking back are you where you thought you'd be in ten years time?
In some respects I am. I'm at Purdue, so that was right. I used to think I'd have you know a steady boyfriend, a car, a job, ect...normalcy. I could never have anitcipated the college life I've lead these past four years. But in the general sense, I'm right where I wanted to be ten years ago in a litteral sense.

~ Uozumi

02:02

PS: It suddenly occurs to me that I've known CJ almost nine years now. Really, doesn't feel that long ._.

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 05:29:50 GMT

01:16

Dear You,

Where are you? I know you exist or I'd have easily given up hope. I try to convince myself that I'm destined to be an old maid, that I'm destined to be childless and alone the rest of my days, but that little voice within isn't buying one bit of it.

I try to imagine where you might be and who you might be. Do you think we've met yet? Or are you somewhere on the other side of the world? Sometimes I think that by getting put in the all girls' dorm next year, that'll make you appear, but that's magical and life isn't a magic trick. Not only that, but just because I find someone next year won't mean it's you.

I know that I should stop clinging to silly dreams brought on by my own imagination. I should stop expecting to find any scrap of love from anyone. I'm not ready for it, and to wish for you to show up is ludicrous and rude to you. If I'm not ready for you, you should stay away wherever you might be. I'd like to think that you are happy werever this is, that you aren't another lonely soul watching everyone else around you mate off and feel inadequate too.

I want to believe that if we meet that things will work out. I'm not expecting an amazing omg let's date! atmosphere, but to become friends first might be nice. Though, with my luck, we will meet and things will be brief and then you will be away and I will stay. I need more confidence before I can realize who you are or even before I can meet you.

I don't think we've met yet. I'd think that I would know you after a while. There's been this feeling deep within me since before I can remember, this sense of another person that's hard to ignore sometimes. I'm not sure what it means, but I'd like to think that it means I am capable of a normal life. I hope it means that I'm capable of loving and maintaining a relationship.

You know, I've always wanted to be a prince. Perhaps you're a girl? I thought I liked girls for a time, but now I'm thinking I'm just a curious heterosexual. I really think you're a guy, and my biology and phyisology is rooting for such, but maybe I'm just off base entirely. Yet, I really hope you aren't female because sometimes I hate girls. I've never really had a "I hate men" moment, but I've had many, many "I hate women moments," so I'm hoping my insticts are right and my wanting and needing is right and you're male.

I also hope you never see this. Though, if you do and you know me well enough you probably know I'm a bit quankers. I've probably said some word salad to you and probably stumbled and stuttered, and I'm sure you've seen me petit mal in the middle of talking. How embarrassing! I hope if you ever see this I haven't done anything too embarrassing to you. I don't want to embarrass you, but I don't think I can be a normal average person either, so I guess if we are meant to be, you probably aren't looking for Miss Normal Average anyway.

I wonder where and when we'll meet, but I own't speculate. Let's have it be fun and something unexpected. I know I'm not given to spontanity, but let's be spontaneous with this. I want things to start out well and just get better. I know that there will be downs with the ups, but I can hope that even if we turn into an uphill struggle that there will be more good than bad, right?

This is getting too long, and I don't know why I'm writing this. Part of me reasons that you don't exist and the sensation I feel is just a seizure, missfiring sparks without great pauses or great body shaking. I'd like to think you're more than that, but then where are you?

Though, I think in a way it's good you're not around yet. I want to be at my very best when we meet. I want to be happy and healthy and in a good place in my life. So even if I'm lonely, I want you to wait just a bit more before you appear. I want to show you my best, not my worst. I don't want to put you through this burden with me, so let me take care of everything and then we can begin.

And even if that means we don't meet for decades, at least I think you're out there and for now, that's all I really need.

Love,

Me.

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 06:45:36 GMT

02:45

Can my headache go away now?

~ Uozumi

02:45

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 21:19:28 GMT

17:17

Tim Russert is dead. It's kind of hard to believe.

My dog is having seizures I think. His entire body is shaking against my foot right now. I don't know what to do with him. He's been getting these shaky attacks on and off the past year, and they're getting worse the more he has. He's going to be eleven tomorrow, so I guess it comes with the territory. I just wish there was something that I could do to make it easier for him. Having seizures sucks ass.

~ Uozumi

17:19

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 04:34:44 GMT

0:23

Happy Friday thirteenth to all.

How'd it get to be almost Father's Day? We have to figure out what to get Dad. I also need to figure out what kind of cheesecake I'm making.

I love this song. I really like BUCK-TICK, which is kinda funny because the first time I heard them I didn't care for them at all XD Though I think that it was actually their album covers that were freaking me out. Maybe I should give MUCC a second chance, eh? Dir en Grey and Larc en Ciel~ got many chances and I still don't like them. I should give Crow more of a chance since it's Kagrra, under a different genre and earlier, but I dunno. I'll figure soemthing out. I should listen to the radio more.

I wish my insomnia would go away. Everyone else's insomnia went away and so I'm the only one left online anymore. I mean I could do other things, but reading still hurts, and well...there aren't many thigns you can do before bed that will relax and calm, you know?

I wrote a mediocre one-shot last night, but fuck I WROTE something and didn't ending up puking or anything, so that's a start. Maybe I should go back to writing at night like I used to. I wonder if I can do manage a chapter fic or something. I still can't seem to pull original stuff out, but I'll take what I can get. I think that this might come in slow steps and I know my personality is the type who wants to rush into it and embrace it and go OMG WHERE WERE YOU?! but I probably shouldn't rush this writing thing. I felt like such a not me without my writing all these months. I don't know if anyone can quite understand what kind of out of body experience it was. I can't wait for it to get back to normal.

Apparently Inu-Yasha is ending next week at an amazing chapter 558. This week's chapter made me a giggly pile of fangirl. *facepalms* But, I can't believe this series is going to end. I mean it's been a long time comming. It is twelve years old and I've been reading it for God...eight years now? I admit I haven't read all of it. I kinda stopped around where my manga collection stops and restarted about uh...I don't remember when. Maybe chapter 48X or something?

I need to do something or I dunno. Since I'm awake, I should be productive sorta.

"In the sky" should NOT be this catchy. I need to turn my music off for the night soon.

~ Uozumi

0:34

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 04:18:35 GMT

0:04

I'm goign to take a break from my prepping of the next page I'll color for contest to do the MASH thing. I never did it growing up because the girls ignored me when I asked if I could play it too on the bus.

I decided to list off types of people instead of actual people because I don't really have a crush on anyone right now.



		I will marry American.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Japan in our fabulous Apartment.
		We will have 2 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Black Ford.
		I will spend my days as a Writer, and live happily ever after.

All I can think of is in an Initial D fic I read once, Keisuke stole the grill off a Ford XDDDD

I really doubt I'll ever go to Japan in my life much less live there, but whatever. It's just a game.

You know, last night I had a dream that I met Senator Obama and I had to explain to him why I was voting for Senator McCain instead even though I am a college student and thusly must be brainwashed into voting for Senator Obama. The weirdest thing about the dream though wasn't how articulate I was in my answer, but the whole dream I was thinking, "I hope he doesn't hate me."

Weirdness I know. Because, really, this would never happen since I highly doubt I will ever come face to face with the Illinois senator, and I'm not sure if I have the gall to tell him I'm not voting for him to his face XD;;

Ahahaha...

Anyway, back to detoning for me!

~ Uozumi

0:18

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 04:15:07 GMT

23:58

Have I talked to you good manga fans about Sket Dance? I think I might have gushed once or twice about it. Well, I didn't think I could fall deeper in love with this Shounen Jump second-tier in the line up offering, but Chapter Fourty-Four just....This manga is now one of my favorites now.

What is Sket Dance?

Well it's about these three students (Bossun, Switch, and Himeko) who have a club called the Sket Dan. This club is there to help the teachers and student body at a high school with whatever problems come along. Some of these problems range from a rivalry with the Student Council to wacky science experiements courtesy of their teacher sponsor to a ghost mystery and a "doping" samurai. It's kind of silly in an almost Ginatama-like way, but it's not into the gross side of humor.

It's the first manga from Shinohara Kenta. I highly recomend it.

I have the horrible luck of liking characters that die. However, in this series, there was a really unique twist. I think that I made the right decision to stick with this manga through all the weirdness because this twist just proved to me that this is the type of writer/mangaka that I enjoy the most. They had you something amazingly predictable and then do something unexpected but not too outrageous. Admittedly, becoming a siblings that's passed on is not a new concept - think Nuriko only no gender bending - but if An-chan had gotten there in time and gotten between the knife and Switch at that crucial moment, I think that is the situation that seems to happen most in your basic shonen or shojo.

This is very interesting. It also seems to be segwaying into the formation of Sket Dan since that really looked like Bossun's hand in that doorway. Also, who else would bring "Switch" back to the light but Bossun? And I mean this in completely friendship-based terms.

I'm looking forward to the next chapters even more now. Even though after this flashback set when everything goes back to normal, I think that I will have more of a fondness for this manga series. This type of technique always gets me every time when it's executed just right XD

Also, there is hope since Sket Dance doesn't seem to be in any immediate threat of cancellation in Jump currently. I'm hoping that others might come to have warm 'n fuzzies for this manga too so it can have a secure place in Jump lineup. I'm not asking for top five or anything, but just never slipping too far down into the danger zone.

I know that if Kenta-sensei does any more series after this, I will always give them a look see.

XD Isn't it kinda silly? It's like red hair. This type of plot trick totally gets me every time :|

~ Uozumi

0:15

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 16:10:34 GMT

12:06

I'm back.

It was a lot of pain ~~because they can never numb me~~, but no tears. I'm swollen, but it's going down due to ice packs.

Now I have two lovely screws in my gums ♥ I get to go back in in two weeks and have them looked at then six weeks after that I get to get the actual implants put in.

It hurts more to lie down, so I'll be sitting here for a while now alternating between ice pack and no ice pack.

They tweaked my flipper (a retainer with two false teeth on it so the gaps in my teeth don't close while waiting for the permament teeth), but I won't really know how that works for me until the swelling goes down.

I think I'll draw today. I have a weird idea for a series of drawing, and I want to work with oC 4.06E and I want to practice drawing straight to the computer with my mouse without aid of a pen tool.

~ Uozumi

12:10

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 11:31:54 GMT

07:25

I'm going to go have my dental surgery soon. In an hour I'll be at Dr. O's and ready to go. They're going to check on how my bone has been growing since the liquid bone was put in months back and then drill up in and put in my screws. Then, if I remember right, that is going to heal and then in a couple months time I'm going to go in and they're going to put in the mounts and then I go straight to Dr. R's where they'll cap the mounts and I'll have my two missing teeth back in implant form.

It's kinda weird to know I'll have screws in me, but kinda cool. I remember when they first talked to me about implants back in 2000. The process was less streamlined and more surgical and it just sounded likea bad time. Now, almost ten years later, it really sounds practical and there are less complications. The dentists are trying to talk my dad into an implant - he got a tooth knocked out during basketball when he was sixteen or so - but he's not sold yet. I guess that after my fucktarded bridge for so long I just realized that implands just seemed easier than this wiggly wobbly ouchie plaster thing.

That reminds me, I need to go mark up something somewhere.

~ Uozumi

07:31

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 05:08:44 GMT

01:03

Happy Tanabata, everyone! I hope that you can all spend it with your lovers ♥

I am in so much pain right now I'm not sure whether I want to scream or curl up into a ball and cry.

I ended up not drawing. I colored today for next week's contest. It turned out better than my other colorings. I hope it doesn't end up shock bright when I upload it. I'm not sure why there's such a discrepancy between what I see in Photoshop and what I see after uploading the image. I noticed it first with Unfiltered on DA, but I thought it was my eyes tricking me, but apparently it's not. I'm not sure what it is though since it can't be screen resolution. Maybe I'm imagining things.

Our sirens didn't go off when we got a Severe Thunderstorm Warning with our TOrnado Watch today, which was odd. Normally they run the sirens in such a situation because there are people out at Lions' Park. I wonder if this means I don't have to escape my room unless a storm is definitly upon us during Tornado Watches anymore.

I was going to say something but I forgot what.

Oh well.

~ Uozumi

01:08